ballerina moments

Entire daydreams devoted to dancing.
Nothing rekindles it quite like Daae.
(spare me the "cliche" speeches)
So much of me is
Entangled..
in that music, the essence of it.

That vision of the future is lost,
and I only remember it hard,
"No backward glances.. I've decided."
Something in the rhythm I think.
lulu understands i'm sure.

it eats at your soul some days..
especially in ballerina moments.

Once Upon a Time...

Tradition.
takes on a new meaning
Fiddler on the Roof..
"sounds crazy, no?"

I'll miss the first act..
cranberry and vodka.
BrewStang and Devo
It was always bettter when you'd mix for me..
like when mom makes dinner.

symptomatic of a breakdown

i wouldn't recommend a tour of my head right now.
stupid twirly thoughtlessness
panicked screaming from stage left
culminating in a gibbering terrorfest
provoked by a lidocaine needle.

i don't want the past four days in my head..
please just make them go away..

i'll be sleeping with Prince Valium..
doctors orders.